(A few things I’m super grateful for: Gigi, this unreal vintage aluminum christmas tree I found for a really good deal, and my faux fur…in that order.)
I’m super overwhelmed with gratitude today. You know how sometimes you have like a big problem in your mind? Something you just can’t get over, or a feeling or an emotion you just can’t shake? And then some time passes, things happen, and you look back and realize that the problem has been solved. Or you’ve found ways to help the situation and it’s just, not that big of deal anymore?
Today I realized that some things that have been troubling me have dissipated. Thoughts and feelings that left me sleepless for weeks are gone. And it’s like, I hardly even noticed they had left. It actually took a lot of work and effort on my part to fix those faulty thoughts and get them to leave. But now that they are gone it feels like they snuck out the back door. And even though they were horrible house guests, after the mess was finally tidied, nothing of them remains. Now I’m sure I’ll find a dirty sock when I least expect it, or they’ll show up again unannounced. But for right this minute I am rid of them.
It’s easy when things are going ok to just bounce along and not really appreciate it. So today I just wanted to take a minute to enjoy the fact I can breathe, my heart isn’t racing, my skin isn’t crawling. I don’t feel crazy. And for me, that’s saying a lot.
And because I have been given much, I thought I’d give in the way I tend to give. Which is by sharing my experiences and saying, oh hey friend, if you kind of want to die or cry or both right now, this too will pass. The holidays are such a happy time, but I also know they can be a sad time for so many. So whether you’re feeling good, or hoping you could feel better, from the bottom of my heart I wish you all the best, and so much love.