Oh Mr. Rad! His smile is like a happy pill. If you smile at him he will smile at you within seconds. And when Radcliff smiles he smiles with his whole soul, his whole tiny body smiles. And it makes you feel SO GOOD. I can just tell he’s going to be such a sincere, sweet man. The type of person you find yourself opening up to and telling everything…and you’re not sure why.
I dare you not to fall in love.
Then I found this picture and had a total mom moment and just about died.
But I’d like to also talk about me. Hahaha. So in a huge subject change…
Does it seem like I know what I’m doing? I mean like, other than taking care of these insane (well only one of them is insane…) children?
I want to assure all of you that I don’t. I seriously have no clue. And it has been causing me quite a bit of anxiety.
When it comes to being a mom, having a blog, being a wife, being a HUMAN. I have no idea what I’m doing.
I do all these things, I make mobiles, I write for other sites, I started a YouTube channel, I write for my own stuff, I make crafts for a Martha Stewart challenge (it does not pay), I return emails and collaborate. I just do ALL these things. And if you do those things it seems silly not to use social media outlets to promote them. But then you have to keep up with those! Don’t you? Oh yes, and I take care of two children.
So, it should really seem like I know what I’m doing, or at least what I’m working towards. But I don’t. Like I said, it has kind of been causing me a lot of anxiety lately. Ha. Nothing new.
Do you know what you’re doing?
What do you think I should do?
What do you do?
I wish I knew the end result but I just don’t. So I guess I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing, unless someone has any helpful suggestions?
And speaking of “doing what I’m doing” here’s what else I’ve been doing, (sigh):
I wrote about 10 pairs of awesome sunglasses and how they can make you look thinner! (I’m kind of reprehensible, but I have the best intentions…)
I wrote a response to Time Magazine’s “The Childfree Life” cover story.
I made like 5 crafts this week, 3 shirts, and continued planning a baby shower.
I had 300+ conversations with Ginger about Foofa, Tigger, and her other “friends” (rubber lizards, plastic horses, tiny lions, pieces of chalk, little books) and negotiations about them, their whereabouts and how many of them she can bring everywhere we go.
I cooed at baby Rad and felt a HIGH with each smile he gave me.
I watched the whole first season of Scandal.
I nursed Rad on the couch and checked my Instagram over and over.
I played the same level of Candy Crush probably 30-40 times.
I worked out, I ran, I ate a lot of fat free popcorn.
I said my prayers and read my scriptures (I do those things).
I gave some church service.
I did all this thikning if I just keep doing the things that should make me happy, I’ll be able to figure out what it is I’m doing.
And yet, I have NO IDEA WHAT I’M DOING.
What did you do?